About 2 months ago, abruptly, I set this blog to private, and gave nobody access to it.
A blog growing in popularity monthly, and was running at about 5,000 hits a day and that was within 60 days of achieving it’s 1 millionth hit. A blog where I had received literally hundreds of comments and emails thanking me for it. A blog that gave me satisfaction and was part of my personal penance for what I had done.
And when I ended it, I received frantic emails from many asking me to let them back in. Or for help. And hundreds of access requests.
So I needed to explain this. Why did I end it? Why is it back?
My Blog has a purpose: To help others while helping me deal with me. It’s part of my personal penance. So let me summarize what I’ve said to others before.
If you think in any way I’m excusing affairs. I’m not. Let me be completely frank about affairs: They are 100% WRONG! Continue reading
Yes, there are different types of affairs! It’s occurred to me how much on blogs and forums we throw around the word “affair” as if they are all about the same. As if a one-night stand is the same as 5-year, deeply emotional and physical affair. I think that properly identifying the type of affair that has occurred or is occurring is important because it will lead the betrayed spouse to make the right decision – should I stay or should I go? Answer the question of who they are really married to? Continue reading
Sexual infidelity is one of humanity’s great obsessions, perhaps second only to violence. We abhor it, yet we want to hear all about it. We love the topic. It’s on the news, the web, movies, and on TV. We can’t get enough of it. But while we often get the details of “who” the infidelity involves and “how” it was carried off, the question of “why” is the most vexing. Continue reading
After receiving a number of emailed questions from Betrayed Spouses, it occurred to me that there is an issue out there that I haven’t read much about: When your Wayward Spouse claims to want to save the marriage, has ended the affair, but does not show or state real remorse for what they did. It can be enraging and confusing. When your spouse isn’t showing any outward displays of guilt such as these, it may be particularly upsetting because it seems to show a lack of sympathy, caring, or remorse, and has you thinking he or she is likely to repeat the experience once you calm down and some time has elapsed. You may wonder how you can fix a relationship where the cheating spouse doesn’t appear to really “own” the wrong he or she has perpetrated. Continue reading
I found this to be very profound and I could relate to it. I presents I think the mindset of many married men who have affairs and why they have them. And I think it also highlights in this case the somewhat unaware or uncaring betrayed spouse who doesn’t care a dangerous emotional vacuum is opening up in the marriage. Continue reading
Looking back 3 years ago when I embarked on my affair, there were numerous potential fall-outs from my affair I really didn’t consider. Did I consider how my life might blow-up if it was discovered? I did. Continue reading
The more I’ve read, the more I’ve learned. And one of the things I ran into on this blog are a series of Betrayed Spouses that refuse (yes, REFUSE) to grant forgiveness, and then wonder why their marriages haven’t recovered? Because withholding forgiveness is power. Because to not forgive is to punish. And you can’t pursue healing until you forgive.
So I saw this article. I thought it very powerful Continue reading
Short answer? Sometimes. But not as often as people in them think they will. In fact, it’s pretty rare that two people in an affair end up married, and are still married after 5 years. Those that do marry face this sobering statistic: They are twice as likely to end up in divorce than marriages that didn’t start out as an illicit relationship. Continue reading
What do I do now? Am I on the right path?? Should I stay in marriage or leave it, even though the affair is over? I’m still unhappy!! Should I save my marriage? CAN I save my marriage? Or should I just have another affair so that I can stay in my marriage? HELP!! Continue reading
If you are truly remorseful for your affair, and you truly wish to not only make amends to your Betrayed Spouse, but remake your marriage in such a way that an affair would never be an issue again, you have much work to do. You may not even be able to save the marriage as some Betrayed Spouses just can’t get past it. Repairing this — if it’s repairable – usually takes a long time. A year or more. While I’m not suggesting that you have to hang in there no matter what — that you may have a spouse who seeks punishment more than forgiveness — there are things you need to avoid if you want your marriage to be saved. Continue reading
This blog entry is on mistakes that Betrayed Spouses routinely make during marital recovery. Blunders and errors of judgment that make it unlikely that a marriage will not only survive an affair.. I wrote it after reading blog after blog by Betrayed Spouses who seem to be doing all in their power to sabotage marital recovery and don’t realize it. From my reading, thought and research, I came up with what I think are 21 things to avoid if you want your marriage to survive and thrive after an affair. Continue reading
Sex IS the “glue” in a marriage!! It is fundamental. A leg of the chair that is your relationship. Sex is certainly not everything, and in the greater scheme of a marriage, it’s actually a pretty small part of the overall interaction between two people, but, truly, sex is what holds all the rest together. Continue reading
How often have you heard or read something that I read today on another blog (related to an affair?) — “That WHORE ruined my marriage!!”, as if this woman held a gun to this guy’s head and made him cheat on his wife. Or “That jerk seduced my wife and now my marriage is over!!” It’s a common thing to read or hear. Continue reading
I’m posting this because this addiction – to the affair, to the affair partner – is something I went through and am now past. Seeing someone who turned out to be destructive, mean, and psychotic helped me get over them faster, but I still felt the “withdrawal” from the affair when I terminated it and went cold turkey. It was still a process.
I wrote this for some of you Waywards that I see on blogs, on message boards, asking, “Why oh WHY can’t I get over him/her so I can heal my marriage?” Continue reading
I often read blogs from betrayed wives who seem genuinely baffled by what their husband is thinking in the aftermath of a discovered affair. What are they thinking now when they think about about their affair? Our recovery? About their ex-Other Woman? My own wife expressed this very thought to me this weekend. It got me thinking. Are there commonalities in our thinking, especially among males? Continue reading
For you married men in the immediate aftermath of your affair — it’s over and it’s been discovered (or reported to) your wife. Or perhaps you even confessed. But here you are and now you must face your choices.
What are you feeling right now? What burdens are you carrying? This is for you. Some of us out there DO understand what you’re thinking and going through. Although you will find condemnation of you everywhere around you, including the Internet, you need some plain speaking and understanding so you can move forward. Continue reading
“The Semi-happy Marriage: Too safe to leave, too boring to stay. A business partnership at best.”
The “Semi-Happy Marriage has become common these days and is one of the most common situations that lead to affairs and/or divorce, according to relationship experts.
All marriages have their ups and downs, but the semi-happy marriage is chronically ambivalent. It’s a marriage that’s neither miserable nor all that successful. Continue reading
This post was generated by a number of things that I’ve been seeing on blogs and message boards. Waywards (former cheaters) lamenting about their ex-Affair Partner. Most of them stating that they are trying to make amends to their spouses (or in some cases, the spouses still don’t know about the affair) and recommitting themselves to their marriage, but still unable to “get over” their ex-Affair Partner. Continue reading
While discussing the whole situation with my wife last night, she basically told me, “you’re being harder on yourself than even I’ve been….I’ve forgiven you for all of this, but you clearly haven’t forgiven yourself. And you need to. Perhaps you should go back to therapy with (my therapist’s name)?” Continue reading
The posts of a couple of betrayed spouses whose blog I stumbled upon recently got me thinking. One even went as far as to list something like 50 questions she thinks she absolutely “needs” to know from her wayward spouse so that she can “heal,” including needing to know if her husband liked his lover’s breasts better than hers!! Continue reading
First off, this article is NOT meant to let men off the hook. Or that it’s only men who have grievances against their spouses. Or that only men are susceptible to affairs. Not true. I hope some Former Cheating Female writes something similar from the female POV. Truly. I just wouldn’t be qualified to do so. That being said….this is a topic I’ve thought long about, based on what I’ve seen on blogs, read in books, and heard in a roundabout way from a variety of on-line therapists and psychologists. What is the common thread for why most men cheat? Continue reading
I’m reprinting an article on a concept that is an incredibly accurate predictor of marriage/relationship doom.
The concept in short? Relationships that aren’t given the right amount of positive energy are doomed to what the author, Dr. John Gottman, calls “The Four Horseman of the Apocalypse” in a relationship. Eg, how we handle that conflict helps decide whether or not the relationship remains healthy or moves towards its end. The “Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse” are criticism, contempt, defensiveness, and stonewalling. Get them out of your relationship. Continue reading
“Should I confess my affair to my spouse/partner??” This is a vexing question for many. Of course, I will have the chorus of the usual crowd of Betrayed Spouses that visit (and sometimes attempt to bomb) my blog say, “YES OF COURSE! YOU MUST TELL! ALWAYS! NO MATTER HOW MUCH TIME HAS GONE BY!” And they may have a point. It’s better to be honest. Living a lie is bad. Basing a marriage on a big lie (or a series of them) isn’t just bad, it’s abusive.
But this blog entry is not for them, although I’m sure to hear from them (in this case, I ask you to refrain from commenting however).
This blog is solely for the cheater who is currently or is no longer cheating. Who had a one-night stand, or just got out of their 10th affair, and everyone in between. This does not address where your spouse knows that you had an affair and you wish to relieve yourselves of the guilt by telling all. This is where you had an affair (or the affair is still going on) and your spouse was unaware of it. This is the question that I often get by email — Should I confess what I did even though I didn’t get caught? Continue reading
Twice in the last year, I have been asked by someone how to overcome the recent disclosure that their spouse had an affair many years ago. In one case, about 20 years ago. In another case, 30 years ago (yes, during the first Reagan Administration!). I guess I was initially puzzled as what to advise. So I throw this one out to my readers as well. Continue reading
You will occasionally see true “wisdom” even in the most silly, or maudlin, movie. In this case, it’s the original “Karate Kid”. And I think Mr. Miyagi’s discussion about how to not get “the squish just like grape” applies to the topic of infidelity and marital recovery. In fact, it’s good advice for many things in life, to be honest.
Cheaters: You must choose a path in life. You can’t try and run the double life — marriage and affair going on — and hope that it all works out. Sooner or later, you too will get “the squish” trying to navigate your life between spouse and lover. It will blow up in your face most of the time, if not erode your psyche from within.
To those Betrayed: You must choose a path. If you really do not wish to forgive and recover your marriage, then do yourself and your spouse a favor and release them. Divorce. Trying to navigate between “punishment” and “reconciliation” does not work. You cannot pursue justice and forgiveness at the same time. You can’t take the middle road. You must choose one path or the other. Life is too short to do otherwise.
Every once in a while, I run across commentary about my blog, and me personally. Usually by bitter betrayed spouses. Almost always inaccurate. I don’t take them on directly. They will only yell and scream more nonsense at me.
But I’m not afraid to take on their criticism either. So I’m printing it here, and by the way, this is only a sample of some of the utter and complete nonsense that I’ve read about me: Continue reading
The answer? Mostly not. But sometimes yes. It’s an illogical and mind-boggling phenomenon. There are people very happy in their marriages that have affairs? Really? Continue reading
You gotta love this. I mean, what motivates some of these people? I can’t imagine why someone would have such hate and vitriol for a stranger. I can’t imagine why my blog’s message of mutual understanding, hope, forgiveness and reconciliation (while being 100% against affairs) is so threatening to someone. But the world is full of people, and some of them are jerks. Continue reading